I want to be a strong, and unquestioned leader. I want to be the assumed first string of my touch team and while I’m there, I want to ‘one-up’ the boys. I want to be uncompromising but entirely forgiven because of my exuberant charisma. I want to kick around the house in my boxer shorts while I sip on a cup of strong dark-roast coffee (and pretend it tastes exactly how I like it). I want to take my whiskey neat and my marriage on the rocks (to justify my affairs). I want to be the hero and feel proud. I want to be the villain and feel proud. I Wanna be Mark Wahlberg.
This solo show seeks to understand the effects of my conservative Christian upbringing, where gender was presented to me as two very distinctly opposing things, and examines how these have carried forward into my experiences of identity now.
Created and performed by Melody Rachel with mentorship from Julia Croft as part of Basement Theatre’s Ideas in Residence 2020 programme.